The Lord is teaching me new things. My soul is ready, but my heart is nervous. I am a fearful person. I am not accustomed to change. I get set in my ways and I don’t want to be moved. But the Spirit has been softening my heart for months now, and I can see now that God seeks a revival in my life.
This isn’t about coming back to Christianity. This is about maturity. Growing in the Spirit. Cultivating spiritual fruits. And letting go of the control that I thought I needed to have.
Romans 12:2 And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is that good and acceptable and perfect will of God.
I am learning truths about who God is.
About learning to trust Him.
About my role as a follower of Christ.
How I am not defined by how much money I make.
How my success in life is not defined by what I do outside my home.
How keeping up with my laundry and dishes glorifies my God.
How God is in control of my life, even when I think I am.
About motherhood, and bringing up Godly children with values and virtues.
About stepping back and allowing my husband to possess the authority that God gave him.
I am excited to see the results of these changes, but I know that the road will be hard. I know that through this process, God will expose truths in me that will hurt. I am only ready with the strength I gain through my Savior, Jesus Christ.
John 3:16 I can do all things through Christ, who gives me strength.
Psalm 139:23-24 Search me, Oh God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.